I’ve missed blogging this past 6 weeks! Where have I been? Where did I go? Have I been sticking to any types of working out or eating right?? No worries, I’ll tell you all about my little hiatus right NOW!
So my last post, I let you know that for my birthday, I was giving up worrying about my weight and saying bump it all! I’ve majorly enjoyed doing that lol. I didn’t go to the gym and I definitely didn’t meal prep. I didn’t stress about my calorie intake or anything related to MyFitnessPal or Fitbit. I also had some new responsibilities at home that took up some of my time so I wasn’t focused on not being at Zumba or the gym. It’s been a busy time with a new baby in the house as well. He’s such a little angel! So to keep a short story short, hiatus was necessary for me. Honestly, I was super stressed and not really losing the amount of weight that I wanted to anyway. So this has been a good time to refocus on what I want for real. What has me on fire to get back on track the most though?? A friend of mine suggested that I get the gastric sleeve. Let me preface this to say that there is nothing wrong with bariatric surgery at all! It is a tool for many people to achieve weight loss while also curing medical issues they may be dealing with. I’ve watched enough documentaries to know that there is also work to be done post surgery. So it’s not in any way an easy process to go through. I thought about getting a lap band a few years ago and this same friend was adamant that I didn’t need to do that. I’ve talked to my close family about it and they’ve even said that I didn’t need to go the surgical route. So I’ve moved away from that idea completely at this point. So to have this friend say that, kinda hurt my feelings a bit I can’t lie. How easily it was thrown into our convo made me feel like she didn’t believe that I could lose weight on my own. Again, there’s nothing wrong with the lap-band, gastric sleeve or bypass. I don’t feel that I personally need to take that particular route though. I would feel like I gave up on myself a little bit simply because I know I haven’t given this my best yet. I know that I have been inconsistent with my weight loss, but that’s completely due to my lack of dedication. I can lose weight, I’ve seen that for myself. I did it before so I know I can do it again. I have to quit being a quitter, point blank period. I have to stop getting discouraged when I don’t see the results as quickly as I think I should. So, right now, my focus has to be all about pushing past my insecurities and keep freaking going. I’ve been on this journey for a long time and haven’t reached my goal yet. That sucks in essence, but the good thing is that I have this chance right now to fix it.
This is my life and I have the ability to take control of it. I have allowed food to control me. Remember that emotional eating thing? It is very real and I’m going to master it. YES I SAID MASTER IT! I will not allow my emotions to lead my food choices. How though? I truly don’t know lol! I’m willing to sit on my hands at this point though. I’m going to take this thing one day at a time that’s for sure. I don’t want to look to the end result. That’s too hard and that’s overwhelming. I’m looking at today’s goals and what I want the result to be. Today’s goals are to leave sodas alone and meet my water intake. Meal prep for the Mon-Weds all of my meals. Get my water together for the week so it’s easily available. These are doable things and will make my week easier. I’ve got to make this foolproof so I don’t go making bad decisions. I’ve got to get back serious about my journey this time so I don’t have to start over again in a few months. I just have to keep going no matter what. I’ve allowed so many things to get me off track over time. I want to see what true weight loss looks like. I want to know what achievement feels like for me again. I’m not ready to throw in the towel and resign on this journey. I took a break but that’s over. I’m back in the saddle and ready to blaze forward. It is not impossible to win, but it just takes some dedication and focus. I am ready to have that “OMG I DID IT” moment when I get to one of my major goals. So I’m ready to push myself and get to where I want to be. You can do it too. If you fell off of your wagon, it’s time to get back on. Sometimes we just need the right fire lit. I can do it. I will do it and I will not fail. I’m glad to have another chance to get it together. I woke up today with a renewed sense of self. Day 1 (again). No worries though because I believe in myself. I have faith that I can stop overeating. I have faith that I can stop eating a ton of the wrong things. I know I can. I know I will.
Starting (over) weight: 300.2 LBS
Goals This Week:
- Stay Hydrated!! Drink at least 100oz. of water each day.
- Eat pre-cooked meals and avoid the drive thru!
- Use MyFitnessPal each day to track my calorie intake and stay under my calorie limit.
- Work out at least 3 days this week for at least 30 minutes!
- Hit my 8000 step goal each day.